Leaving my baby

Tomorrow I have to leave my 4 week old baby boy with someone other than my husband for the first time. He's my third child so it isn't as hard as it was with the first child, but it's hard in other ways. My mom was always the one to watch the girls when they were very little. There was something very comforting about knowing that if my husband and I both had to be away from our infant that it was my mom who was looking after them. After all, she's my mom and she raised me so I knew she could take care of a baby. The woman I am leaving the baby and the other kids with is a dear, sweet lady and a good friend of my mom's whom I completely trust and have known for many years, but still, it just isn't the same. It should have been my mom...but then if it was my mom I wouldn't be leaving them in the first place since it's for a team meeting with all of mom's doctors. This is just one of those examples of the small aches I experience on a daily basis.