Displacement

Displacement. I feel so lost, so confused. It's like living in an alternate reality. I'm suddenly living in a world without my mom and I just moved to a new apartment, not to mention I'm still figuring out the ins and outs of trying to take care of three children. I can't make sense of anything right now. My world does not feel normal in any way. In a weird way I almost wish we hadn't moved...just so space and place would have some sense of comfort in being normal...but they aren't. I've had more people in and out of my new place, actually staying with us than I've ever had before. I'll soon have a long-term guest. It all is out of the realm of normal for me. I know my befuddlement is normal and expected, but that doesn't make it any less.

Tomorrow is my 7th Wedding anniversary. & is supposed to be a significant number...lucky number 7 and perfect 7...I wonder if it will do anything good for me?